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i said i was thinkin about it to court but i was mostly talking out of my ass cause we'd just fought and i was big into my feelings [...] and most of my feelings were me bein an asshole

but i don't think i can't not be a responder. and i don't wanna leave prescott. especially after we just spent a week blowin up all the folks i used to serve, i need it

Edited 2024-12-14 01:00 (UTC)

I'll believe you, but it sounds like you're taking all of this pretty hard and could give yourself a little grace maybe. You seem like you're doing a lot of punishing yourself because you think it'll make other people feel better, when you're the one hurting too.

Hey, I get it, they're your family and it's your home. You're a good responder and you want to help people. But if you also want to take the opportunity to figure out if there's other things you might like to do, what you need, then it sounds like good timing to me.

everything just feels weird. or nothing feels right i guess

ain't nothing else for me [...] and don't get all "arlo think more about yourself" cause i don't mean it like that, i never felt as good as i do when i get to help folks through a shitass time. i doubt becoming a [...] scav at the depot or a cowboy at the mill'll scratch the itch the same way

Edited 2024-12-14 06:06 (UTC)

It's not like those are your only two options, by the way, but I get it. Being a responder is your calling.

You don't want to leave Prescott, you need Prescott...I think you have your answer about the sleeping situation. You see Court all of the time anyway. So sack up, things don't feel right, then figure out what does. We're out of just survival mode now and going to really build a community. Your possibilities are endless ~~and you probably need to get laid~~

I've got a bunch of ideas for you already if you want to shoot them all down for fun.

yeah and the trick to seein her all the time's to stay over her, which ain't gonna stick if i get a gander every day when she wakes up. ~~like sorry but my ex-wife's hot as~~

duke said i'm being a baby so. hit me

Exposure therapy. You should ask your brother, the resident therapist about that because I agree with his assessment.

Okay:

Start a stitch and bitch

Start a quad garage with some of the container fort as a side gig, since we'll need one anyway and they need supervision

Get a dog

Get a FWB situation

Get everyone in the quad up to fire safety standards. Train new volunteer fire fighters

Magic Mike at the Lobby

I can keep going.

working with her and being friends again ain't enough????? smells like bullshit to me

- can't. i sat on my glasses
- that's a lot of work???
- i work too much
- can't
- we're already on it
- ok

hit me again

It's just life? Arlo, your options are deal with it and move on as best you can so you can continue to have her in your life AND stay at Prescott, or leave. And you're not leaving, so. Do you want a blindfold?

1. Get new glasses
2. So? You want to be occupied doing something you like
3. This is an apocalypse, not a 9-5 office.
4. Why not?

No more until we sort the above out.

i literally done all the shit you're saying except sleeping in the same room and can't i just have that one lil thing to keep me going or do i gotta put the colgate on her toothbrush too

1 yeah ok i'll pop down to the eye doc right as soon as the world starts back up again
2 but i got a job
3 i don't wanna neglect a dog they don't deserve that
4 [...] it's complicated~~????~~

you're mean

Edited 2024-12-14 16:24 (UTC)

I don't know, do you? ~~Do you think you t~~

1. I wear glasses and go through them like underwear. We can get you some.
2. I said it would be a side gig
3. I really don't think they'd be neglected with everyone at the station, but fine. No dog. No furry companion to be by your side.
4. Does it have to be though? You seem like you need release

Most people are into that. I like you Arlo, I'm trying to help you.

oh fuck off

1 where.
2 maybe.
3 [...] we were talkin about cats though
4 i jerk it plenty thanks. i ain't feeling the fuckarounditis like i used to idk shit's changed

Edited 2024-12-14 17:22 (UTC)

What do you want? Genuinely.

1. We've got a small stockpile of them, but Lola usually keeps an eye out for me when she goes out. Do you have a prescription?
3. Oh, cute. How many?
4. That's fair, sorry to pressure you. Just thought it might help. I get not wanting to feel lonely and at least with a FWB deal there's the friendship part of the intimacy.

to not be too far from everybody else but not so close that i'm sleepin in the same room as my ex-wife. i don't wanna feel [...] isolated and i don't wanna feel in the way and i don't want nobody to build me a special place to sleep just cause i'm sad and everybody else wants me to get over my shit when they say so

1 yeah it was "get glasses so you can see tiny lil fiddly shit like threads" and then my optometrist bled out in the safeway
3 idk depends on how many lundegaard can spare i guess. makepeace's allergic though so we didn't have nowhere for em to sleep
4 that's where i keep getting stuck like there's plenty of folks i could dm a "you up?" to but [...] JUST sex don't have the same appeal lately. maybe lost my touch or i lost my touch and need to fuck it out or maybe i need emotional shit too. maybe it's all of the above like idk it always seems like it'll just be benefits but i [...] want a friend ~~mor~~ too

[...] Want a drink?

1. Unprofessional of him. You sound farsighted, I bet one of those drugstore glasses could work. Come by and you can makeover montage it.
3. Well shit, is it a serious allergy? There's not a separate room?
4. That makes perfect sense to me, and with everything going on there's a lot of opportunity to make better friends. If it turns out to have some other fun benefits, well that's just bonus.

always. duke's coming over though so he can reap what he ~~sewe~~ sowed

1 fine
3 enough that we don't wanna make it worse. everybody's sleepin in the bunkhouse so that was the only option
4 see it sounds easy on paper just not. in real life.

Edited 2024-12-14 20:58 (UTC)

Ha. What's his punishment?

3. You going to pick one out personally? Name it Princess Rattray? Duchess?
4. I don't know, trauma bonding has made people get real close, fast. It'll happen naturally.

helping me find somewhere to sleep that ticks all the boxes

3 princess is was one of my sisters so i'll probably push for [...] prince. name it after me. i work hard i deserve it
4 yeah so mostly i try not to think about it cause i'm too fuckin old to have some sex crisis going on. what about you. are you getting laid

Sounds like he gets what he wants, actually. You're a softie.

3. Or after one of the greatest musicians. You ever see his half time show?
4. As we type this? No. But yeah, I do well enough.

he's gettin what he wants. he's always gonna. but i'm gonna make his life more annoying when he does cause that's how this family works

3 i never played a superbowl
4 that mental image sure was something. has it ramped up for you since the whole peace summit thing or

Well that's just your right as siblings. Makes me miss mine...quite a fucking lot.

3. Hilarious. You also couldn't have pulled off a teal suit and heels like that.
4. Happy to give you more for your spank bank, just let me know. And not exactly...slowed it down actually, things have been so busy and I have a brain that fixates. I did offer to pin Quaid to the Container Fort the other week and have my very public way with him, so we'll if that goes anywhere or if he finishes blushing.

what're they like?

3 you ain't seen me try
4 your wicked ways're gonna corrupt their innocent lil minds, they're the purest of anybody here

Hmm...Carmen has been a mom since she was a kid, bossy, very by the book, first to yell at me and Jesse about anything, but first to go to bat for us too. Superfan, once caught her crying to the Black & Blue poster because she couldn't decide which Backstreet Boy was her soulmate (Kevin). Amazing actual Mom to my niece, who unfortunately ~~was~~is showing signs of similar brain rot for those Direction boys. And Jesse is the bookend that gives 115% to everything, total sweetheart always trying to be bigger and badder than he is and he'd hate that I said that because you're the type of person he would have really wanted to impress.

3. Bet. Let's see it then.
4. Ha

jesse sounds like my kind of guy. where'd you fall in all those kids

3 use your brain eyes, i'm hot i look good in everything.
4 just some kids in a fort that's all

Edited (spoiler: i reeeeally doubt he can pull off teal & orange) 2024-12-16 04:55 (UTC)

Middle. Why do you think I make such a good second?

3. Just because you wear that vest doesn't mean orange is your colour.
4. They literally just grand theft auto'd your home.

cause you can juggle? you seem like the type

3 are you really gonna kick a homeless, blue-balled guy when he's down. really. are you gonna stoop that low
4 yeah and guess who taught him how to hotwire a car [...] not like that would've done anything for the pumper but i gotta brag cause tbh i'm a lil proud he pulled it off

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